meh

after lots and lost of no point blogging, im blogging another pointless blog.

I feel so conflicted and alone right now. i feel i have noone to talk about, just to release all these thoughts to and for them to make sense of it, tell me it will be ok.

Dads away intell sometime tomorrow, getting drunk in london with old dancing buds. im stuck in a dirty flat which i have no energy to clean. it smells bad. But yes, i pray im working tomorrow, kinda.

just wanna hide in bed. i dont want to eat. i want to cut.

im finding it hard to make sense of nything.

shutting up