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ok two post in one day im bored and losing my mind maybe be both.

im just thinking about the last two years and how much things have changed. sentimental me. im full of joy, sorrow and doubt because of it.

two years ago i was so happy i had passed by first btec and scared of the next step i went in spet shy clining to others but then one lunch time i spent it with mike i cant rmeber what i first thought of him. psyniac however i rmeber, i thought he looked kool sitting there in his rammstein hoodie, good music choice i thought xD mill street was magical times i was abit up myself abit because i already knew the staff thought i was better but im not. mill street were some of the best times i think. everyone likes everyone then, its weird how groups form and how people fall out. we became the cathead early on and have been ever since. the second year if the course things dulled alittle i think but we were still a group, people change taste change. the class is still divided but its a larger clump of people.

Its always a worry of what will happen when we leave some people i wouldnt care if i never saw them again but some of them have changed me, given me such happy times and i want to stay in contact with them still see them

Im so happy i met mike and psyniac what i fear ost is lonleyness. i know im not smart or pretty. i know im selfish, annoying and over dramtic also over emotional but they stayed with me there still talking to me and sharing these last days with me.

i never want t let this feeling go. from making freinds with these two i have branched onto making new freinds.

i dont want it to end. dont let this end im afraid of whats next, im not ready for the next step but even if i dont get to uni i will be moving unable to see any of them :'( i dont want to lose anyone i cant bare it.

why do i lose everyone......