all i can say right now is im not ok. i admit that , thats the first step right? admitting there is a problem.
i broke down yesterday over nothing, no trigger i just started to cry i got so anry i started to beat myself up , threw a plate which of course broke told dad it was accident. how do you tell your dad how sad you are how pointless you see life is right now? its to hard and would hurt them to much thats the last thing i want to do to people is hurt them.
felt horrible all day , lost intrest infood feel sick and dont want what i have eaten in me still but i wont give in and be sick i dont want to get even more ill that would be stupid, well im stupid anyway but yea sorry so full of slepf hate.
im looking at my hands typing but i dont feel likes it me im not even thinking there just moving on there own typing away.
im very angry i dont know why i am , think i best go, think im going to start crying again. oops sorry readers bye.
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